Welcome to the luminous haven
“الفنّ يواسي مَنْ كسرتهَم الحياة.” - “Art is to console those who are broken by life.”
So I'm assuming you came here to learn a little about me..
Let's go on a journey of dankness shall we..?
On 12/1/2016 at 11:57 PM, Gokuu Ssj said:
Hi, I'm Gokuu_Ssj/Ssj/Luminosa, better known as Shaf in real life. I'm 22, British, and I work as an optometrist The most common response to the last part is "what's an optometrist?", in which I have to say eye doctor, and then its like ohhh. But I don't like the word doctor for some reason, when it's associated with me. IDK why. It always made me think of like brain surgery and people who take apart biological organs. Anyway, I love my job because although I haven't saved lives, I've saved sight in moments where it would otherwise have gone, and I think that counts for something right? But those are the odd crazy days. Most the time I just fit people with contact lenses or give them glasses, or sit and listen to old ladies telling me about their 20 cats, or someone talking about the weather. Actually, once I asked an 80 year old about his general health as part of routine questions, and he didn't say a single word, just got off the chair and did 10~ press ups and asked me "what do you think?". I wanted to say I think humans are amazing, but I just laughed as usual. By the way, I once slept for 20 hours.
I live on my own and have been independent pretty much since 18 years old, where I moved away for University 3 years and then moved again elsewhere to my current place where I'm renting out a place for work. I work 8:45-5:30PM 5 days a week, which is rough, but I'm sticking it out for now and maybe in a year I'll receive an e-mail from a Nigerian prince offering me $1,000,000,000 and I can get away from you peasants. But for now, I'm okay with the way things are going. I love anime, creating videos/graphics, and like you I have dreams. But I'd gladly rather sleep than achieve them 90% of the time. I went skydiving once and didn't take any snapchats. So theoretically it didn't happen.
I also play league of legends aside from Runescape, and peaked D5 on EUW, and used to elo-boost a lot. For accounts in silver/low gold I used to learn new champions from zero games and boost in the process. So if you tell me you're stuck in elo hell and its your teammates fault, be prepared for a long rant
(because only I'm allowed to say I'm stuck in elo hell and its because of my teammates)
As I'm writing this and waiting to mass up for a fight, AR07 just said he does a skin fade on his balls on teamspeak. Shamefully, he so happens to be my cousin IRL which is a fun fact. He's adopted but he'll swear to you otherwise.
So it started off as "gangste619" roughly 2006. That was spelt how it was by the way. I've had my fair share of spasticism. Anyway, I eventually became Gokuu Ssj on a different account with methods that involved meeting a guy in a park and handing him money. Before this information is passed on to jagex, that account is permabanned for botting anyway. Ironically, it wasn't even me who botted on it. The justice is real. But I just went by that name, even though I've watched a maximum of 7 minutes 37 seconds of DBZ collectively. So I'm known as that I guess, and it just feels strange to leave that name behind. But I was recruited by a random guy called Scattcatt in falador east bank and thats where it all began. This is where he asked me if I wanted to join a clan, and after telling me more about it, I didn't report him for advertising website which was option 7 but instead went to the link, checked it out, and gave The Chaos Crusaders a go. Here I would get my initial taste of the F2P scene and work my way in a year up to council. Further down the line, my parents/family constantly would tell me I was too addicted to runescape for my age. I didn't listen of course, but after a long while it got to me and I eventually thought I might actually not end up getting through academic life and becoming homeless as they suggested, so quit for "real life".
Of course, I came back. Who doesn't come back to this riveting masterpiece of a game called runescape. Not me, of course. So a few years down the line I gave it another go, and having such fond memories of TCC which had closed long by now, I decided to start Envy. I am certain we were the most progressive clan in the shortest space of time that was not based off a re-make/merge/w141 to have entered the zybez scene in that period. It legit started from me and asking random people on my friendslist. I created a base of people initially and taught them warring, quite a few who were there till the day we closed, going from 0 experience to having pulled off game-winning tanks. Within the first year we went from being no namers doing 8 vs 8s to top clans being aware of us, albeit being classed a 'mid-tier' clan. From here we would go on, pull in some big names, reach semi-finals in CWA tournaments against big shots, make allies, enemies, slump, rise, make friends, lose friends, 1 guy get hit by a truck and survive, inner-clan beef hostility because of hockey.tk, karaokes, everything. We went through it all. But we always made it out alive. (Apart from this one day I realised I needed to move on with my life because I had all this educational potential built up and I wouldn't be able to fulfill it leading a runescape clan). Yeh, you guessed it, the fucking 'eye doctor' thing I mentioned earlier. It worked out, but at the cost of closing envy, legit the love of my life. I have no regrets though. Its difficult to put all those memories behind you, but you move on. So we set up our last fight and I did this sob speech and tried to sound emotional (but couldn't because I'm bitter as fuck) and pulled like 70 and fought VR who were #1 at the time then walked down and did some silly spam in edgeville then logged off. Anyway, the bus rides to college were sad for a while and I'd look out the window as though I was part of a music video, but you get over it eventually.
A few years later first year uni I got skyped by Janne who was one of my best ranks in Envy, and she got me to join Genesis, and I thought things were going decent IRL so I told her I'd give it a shot. There were a good handful of Envy members already there and some of my most loyal members were there, so I figured maybe it wouldn't be so bad. I played with it, finished my 3 week FA period and a week later was offered council due to my previous success with envy, to help out with the crashwar. I accepted at the time, but realised I'd quickly regret this choice and it'd end up being one of my biggest clanning regrets - the fact that I couldn't fulfill the responsibility given to me and offer my best. I know at the time where Envy forums were up and I still knew a shit ton of people, I could've made plays. But I was with this chick and had a social life and even though I could find the time, it literally just felt so painfully against what my heart wanted when logging on. I loved Genesis, the people in it were people I'd admired and respected throughout my clanning career from loads of different mid tier clans we'd fought and had been respectful, but I had 0% love for the game runescape itself. Opening my runescape client felt more like a burden than an enjoyment, and so I disappeared pretty quickly after that.
I finished off university, and moved away again since I got a job soon after that. A few months down the line, was living the routine 9-5 life you say you'll never submit to but eventually do anyway, when AR07 & Jackson told me to give Divine Forces a go. So I did. And I haven't regretted it since. This bit of the story is still being written, but I know it'll be one hell of a chapter!
The series HIBERNATION is a series investigating subconsciousness, and the sometimes grey boundary between truth and fiction. It is a personal project that is utilising man and his relation to the landscape as an investigative tool. Based upon real places and events, this series intends to catch moments when our daily reality and our subconscious world sometimes strike each other. It can be seen as a stream of frozen moments, where the story between each frame is as important as the frame itself.
(Øystein Sture Aspelund)
Basically, when you die your spirit leaves your body, actually at first you can see all your life, like reflected in a magic mirror. Then you start floating like a ghost, you can see anything happening around you, you can hear everything but you can’t communicate. Then you see lights, lights of all different colours, these lights are the doors that pull you into other planes of existence, but most people actually like this world so much, that they don’t want to be taken away, so the whole thing turns into a bad trip, and the only way out is to get reincarnated.
Enter the Void (2009) Directed by Gaspar Noé
"We were a perfect match. Maybe that’s why we burnt out."
Know your roll...
"How beautiful it is to dream with the person you love….. And how awful it is that you fulfill your dreams apart from one another .."
“To make this journey, we’ll need imagination, but imagination alone is not enough, because the reality of nature is far more wondrous than anything we can imagine.”